I didn’t know that growing up means I will face more considerations. I will have more things to concern about while making up my mind.
I didn’t realize how easy it was when I was younger to decide on something. Like choosing which major to go to in college. Which campus will be my dream.
I thought when I’d grown up, I would be selfish. I would more concern about how to fulfill what I want. I’d know what I’d want.
It turned out the other way.
Lately I’ve figured out that my life is not just about my desire. It’s about my family. It’s also about my friends. It’s also about my job. It’s also about my employer. It’s also about what I can do for people.
My desire getting smaller.
Sometimes I get confused. I don’t know exactly what I want.
Is it wrong?
When did I start to question someone to tell me that I am wrong or right?
When did I start to doubt myself?
Do I doubt myself?